I've lost you.
You say for now, but how do you know it won't be forever.
Yes, I hate her. And who the hell cares if she has done nothing to me.
One way or another, she did.
I cannot bring myself to hate you although a friend told me it's easier to get over someone using hate. but how can I bring myself to hate someone I love(d).
I'll just love you less now.
And always remember that I'm missing you very very much.
I don't know what to do.
I tried, trust me, I tried to let go.
But I don't know why I can't.
I'm scared. I'm scared to go to town because I don't want to bump into him.
I stay up because I can't sleep and I hate how much tissues I'm using.
I've been hanging out with my best friends til crazy hours in the morning during the weekend.
Drinking, crying, talking about every single thing in our lives, hoping I'll be okay when I get up.
But I'm glad they finally understand why I can't just forget and it saddens me to see them cry along with me.
Back up or not, I don't wanna be it.
And then you turn to things you love- Disney. but right there and then, you just give it up.
You see Bambi and Alice in Wonderland in Laserflair and you're like, "omg. ...oh wait, what's the rush to get it now?" and your friends are OUTSIDE the store, waiting for you.
I don't know what I'm rambling about now.
I feel pretentious.
I feel numb.
And I feel like I just lost a really good friend I once loved so much.
I miss you like crazy.