ARIEL [Air-ree-uhl]

Thursday, October 20, 2011 @6:19 PM

"Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything. I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you', When we should've said 'I'm sorry.'

...What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

...There is a time for silence. There is a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it. I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now."

- Taylor Swift

But does speaking now means doing it on impulse?
Well, I hope not.
I know what I want and I think I know what I want to do.

Sunday, October 16, 2011 @10:15 PM

Something keeps me holding on to nothing.

You're gone.
You're gone too.
and you're almost gone.

I finally met him yesterday after what, 7 months?
That's the longest ever I've gone without seeing him.
I wasn't scared to see him again. I was actually excited.
He was supposed to return some things to me but he didn't realise that it wasn't in the car til he reached my place.
So we just talked for an hour somewhere in Bishan.
I don't know how I can ask for relationship advice from an ex.
I'm glad we're still friends and it was... refreshing to see him again.
But he still smelled of the same green tea cologne when I first met him in MI.
He still makes fun of me.
We still spoke about Disney like before.
hell, I missed him.
I wanted more than an hour with him but I had to go for class.
And I had one of the best feelings of the day when he gave me a lift to church.
You're really something to me.

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I don't know why I can't bring myself to hate you for the things you did and the way you behaved but seriously, you surprised me.
Well done, J. You've issues.
Give that girl a status before you do something stupid again.
B's a nice girl. so please.

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AND HIM. another one. why am I like that?
(I know I'm pretty fucked up)
I don't know why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling but it certainly isn't a pleasant emotion.
How did I end up falling for you.

Screw it la. I've exams to worry about in a week.
I can't do anything stupid now.
Let me let go.
Let me let go.