"We're never gonna get this back you know..."
I remembered you saying this while we were on the bus towards Tanglin Mall.
I remembered how I shrugged it off and told you, "It's not true."
I remembered hoping you were wrong.
I remembered you saying this while we were on the bus towards Tanglin Mall.
I remembered how I shrugged it off and told you, "It's not true."
I remembered hoping you were wrong.
Now that you're so far away from here, I'm trying so hard to remember the codes you gave me.
I might have broken a few and I wish you were here to keep me in check.
I might have broken a few and I wish you were here to keep me in check.
Your 'spies' can't help much like I said :)
You're always so busy, I don't even know when's the right time to tell you what I want you to know.
You said you'll always be here for me but even then, we too have boundaries, don't we?
After that night, I figured some distance would be good (You thought so too.) but I was afraid that we might drift.
And you told me not to fight natural course of events.
And then, that was when I let go.
I admit, I broke the codes.
code, schmode, you say.
I broke what made me real and what grounded me.
I don't need J, but he's always present and I'm too afraid to walk away.
You wouldn't let this happen if you were here physically.
You're always so busy, I don't even know when's the right time to tell you what I want you to know.
You said you'll always be here for me but even then, we too have boundaries, don't we?
After that night, I figured some distance would be good (You thought so too.) but I was afraid that we might drift.
And you told me not to fight natural course of events.
And then, that was when I let go.
I admit, I broke the codes.
code, schmode, you say.
I broke what made me real and what grounded me.
I don't need J, but he's always present and I'm too afraid to walk away.
You wouldn't let this happen if you were here physically.
I drafted this out a couple of days ago but today, you reminded me about my partying habits out of the blue and I don't know what made you tell me all that.
I'm not complaining about your reminders, I'm really happy you did actually.
I know you never meant to control me and I'm loved what you said.
I won't be going over this May like I originally planned to, but perhaps in the future, I might just try again.
After all, you're gonna be there for a while.
I miss you, good friend.
I really really do.
I remembered what you told me in assurance of our friendship, "Our history will forever set our friendship in stone. Firmly grounded in faith and conviction." and I'll try, not to let go completely.
Keeping you in my prayers. Stay strong.
I won't be going over this May like I originally planned to, but perhaps in the future, I might just try again.
After all, you're gonna be there for a while.
I miss you, good friend.
I really really do.
I remembered what you told me in assurance of our friendship, "Our history will forever set our friendship in stone. Firmly grounded in faith and conviction." and I'll try, not to let go completely.
Keeping you in my prayers. Stay strong.
22 hours ago, I was sitting down on the bridge near Zouk with Aloy, Jeremy, Brendan & Edward playing games and drinking Barcadi with Coke/Lime juice/both.
Oh Lord. Last night, was perhaps one of the weirdest attempt to club after drinking.
Zouk was free for all btw! ;)
But... we all left before midnight, with good reasons!
But... we all left before midnight, with good reasons!
2 with curfews, 1 was practically gone already (before 11pm! say whuuut.), 1 was dead sleepy (okay, that was me.) and the only one who was up for more was using 'his last week in Singapore' excuse as a hopeful persuasion, which apparently, failed. hahaha.
We just hopped and sat at random tables for less than 2 minutes from Phuture to Mambo to Velvet and back to Phuture the whole time we were inside.
AND, we managed to convince Edward to just 'take a look' inside.
SIGH :D the wonders of alcohol.
Oh, we even had time to discuss about Penitential Service tomorrow. Cause we're churchies like that. and we need to get Cheryl out there too next time!
If only I knew you guys much earlier.
Before I get to bed, I'm gonna watch some American Idol vids first and pick my favourites. I completely forgot Ch 5 wasn't showing it this season. Sheeshy.
and listen to some Scotty :)
P.S. I miss not texting Jamie so regularly :( hurry get your student plan. or get whatsapp like Gen. hehe.
I'm not in the best of moods right now because of several frustrations and confusions I choose not to care.
Indifference, perhaps?
BUT, I know, I know damn well if I don't, I'm gonna get myself into trouble (maybe a war with myself) and history is gonna repeat itself.
BUT! I'm feeling a little stubborn today and so I'm not gonna care.
I think this is just gonna be a random post about... How I just realised I have many unpublished posts.
Ha, so I'm wondering if it makes sense to publish them now, regarding that those were memories from last year.
Life's getting a little hectic and I need to pull the brakes somewhere in April.
I gotta exercise saying "No" to people, but politely, of course and stop partying til 4 May.
It's Monday again and my week's already almost packed.
1. Gym with Aloysius & Brendan
2. Supper with Jason & Edmund.
3. Set a super belated birthday dinner with Jess darling.
4. Study dates @ night with Joanne.
5. YC on Friday
6. Basic Catechist Course
7. Nic's belated 21st lunch/tea
8. Lunch with a random friend from church
Alright.
Here's to another week of school and awesome meet ups with awesome people.