Tuesday, June 14, 2011 @3:04 AM
Life is better when you decide you don't care.You're wrong, Constantine. You're WRONG.
That's perhaps the worst piece of advice you've given me.
...okay wait a minute. That's the worst piece of advice I took from you.
...okay wait another minute. That's
YOUR advice to
YOURSELF and you knew exactly what you were doing. Fine, granted. and I didn't know what I was doing and I got myself in a mess yet again.
Thankfully on a smaller scale.
I resisted. I swear I did. But he kept making first moves.
Am I to blame?
You make me laugh so freaking much, got me to watch a horror film for the very first time in cinemas, got me to experience a different lifestyle (which I cannot get used to), got me to places where I never thought I'd go...
You can't keep this going and hope with all your might that nothing'll change.
I didn't care and I thought I could do it.
damn you, Ariel. why don't you ever learn.and not caring led to this.
and not caring led me to allow you to do it.
and not caring led me to care.
WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER TO CARE ABOUT YOU RIGHT NOW. ohmygod.
and dammit, you know what's going on. you're guilty and you know it.
You're off drinking somewhere and that's not gonna improve anything when tomorrow comes.
You're my brother's good friend, for heaven's sake, why.
You've known me for three years and you roughly know what happened to me and him, why.
I cannot let the feelings grow.
I
may be ready to love again but I'm not ready to get hurt again.
"Baby, I was naive, got lost in your eyes,
And never really had a chance."